Sometimes I have intense moments of emotional clarity when I realize that we were never perfect. It’s really easy to remember the fights and shitty things we said to each other. But then I get really achy inside and I miss the way it was when things were good. I was really happy. You were literally my world and sometimes I miss you more than you could possibly imagine. I think of you with almost every song on the radio, I think of you when I pass certain restaurants we used to love, and most pathetically I’m reminded of you when I dress myself. I remember specific articles of clothing that I would wear around you and associate them with specific memories. I can’t escape you and the anxiety is starting to actually consume me. I’m going to a place I’ve been before and almost couldn’t escape. I’m losing it. You’ve destroyed me. I just never knew I was this weak. I never want to feel this way again.